Wishes for 2009

Hi all, hope this year will bring lots of peace, love and health for everyone, let's built a new year based on vallues such as trying to be best persons every day.
Now, about wishes, I keep wishing every year that passes to meet Harrison Ford in person.
In addiction to my wishes that seem to be repeated are...to love someone and be loved, summing up, to get a boyfriend would fit perfectly with my wish, and yes to travel, I'd be very happy if I could finally go to Sevilla for next year, and dare I say, going to London, finally?? gosh that one seems a bit too far away for getting true, my sense of being resonable isn't allow me completly to take that as a wish to take it seriously to come true for next year, but, who knows?
I also wish that the guy whom I have a huge actraction with doesn't fall in temptation to another chick that might think he is gorgeous as always and he gets weak and falls in her net, if that happens I will seriously take a conversation with him, I cannot bare it, it was too much for me what happened last year and to happen again, having me all of the time willing for his attention to get him feeling the same as I, and I will continuing to loose, as if he was the winner and as we know he takes it all...it's like wanting to yell, hey I was here first, back off, is so not fair, not again...I'm stuck to not move a finger in trying to conquer him, cause he is engaged and I sure know how to keep away from him...and it has been difficult as hell to not follow my instincts.
I sort of I'm a lost case, I know it, but at the end I just want to solve all of this with him, with his feelings are and not, so I can take a resolution of what to do.
And this is what most is intriguing me, sometimes I wish I wouldn't believe in fairy tales. I thought I was loving a new guy that started to work with us not long ago, but I'm guessing I was mistaken all because I want to skip the other one out of my mind, and I creat these ilusions...sigh.

Well that's all for me moment...

Easy Virtue

Hi my Firth fellow ;) I bet you had seen the trailer of this one already! it's a pure delight, isn't?? I can't wait to watch it, he looks so cool in this movie! British actors sure have something special about them....

http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=xDgWWH2xyeQ

see ya!

Tom Cruise fever

ME? no!!! I'm not sick of that *pucks*.
Unfortunatly there is someone I know who is obssesed and that is a thing that keeps a person selfish. Specially when a person becomes irracional and makes Tom Cruise's life into hers. "Cruisinities" the sympthom name I created is pretty acute in her case. I'm sick and tired of trying to be her friend and lately I discovered she is being away from me cause I don't post on her Tom's forum where she is an admin...
Now, you tell me, do I deserve this? maybe I should laugh instead of crying.

See ya guys.

Is he my love?

For one thing I know, we will always be lovers in thoughts and wishes.
Yeah YOU. you know WHO.

Hello

I'm at work, my computer at home as got some bloody virus...sometimes typing in English in a blog where I should use my thoughts can turn out into a lazy thing to do... I have another blog where I'm certain one of my english readers of this one goes to check it out once in a while...my apologies if thoughts don't come easy as I wished, I have so many ideas coming up but does someone really cares? yes maybe...
My uncle went to be close to my dad last November 26th, I'm still recovering his fault, last time I saw him was past July he said I was going to see him back for his funeral and so he was right.
He lived in Viseu, a city in the northern portuguese territory, I went there immediatly by car, with brother and mother. Memories ran all over my head thinking that last time we were all united ( family/relatives union was for a wedding of a cousin of mine). At that time, my father was there present and so everyone was happy, this time he wasn't even there...I sensed the loss feeling as a shock, suddenly I realised that the future in my comings to his land will never be the same again, but yes something never changes, I will keep saying " I'll go to visit my uncle's house" each time I go there...
Under the light of the Venus star my car followed the road's trail until the destination and so the same happened as we came back to Lisbon, it's the star that stands out as I go out of the castle I tend to look at the sky and see it as my guiding star...

See ya next time...yes I won't let the blog die.

My first acting class

I had it yesterday, it was everything I was needing, I went out so refreshing in mind and body, I loved to do the exercicing of senses, of emotions, really worthy and as result it was everything I wanted and expecting of since the past 6 months.
I've heard that Karen Allen aka freaking Marion of Raiders and last Indy 4 teaches none other but Harrison's Ford daughter, Georgia acting classes, which leads me to think, will she follow the steps of her daddy?? I so hope so!!!

See ya and forgive me the time I spent without posting.

End of holidays

Well, my holidays are almost finnishing, and I'm missing work, really cause it is left too little to do, unless going out for shopping to the super market, staring in front of the computer and...not much else. I'm not complaning, cause I know this rest is doing me good, to get ready for busy days that will come at work...but I don't deal too well when I have nothing to do, and when I think of something useful to do, nothing really comes to mind...so it's boring, that is why I'm taking some time to post this new entry.

I'm happy cause I have a new key board, I have a laptop, but it warms up a lot, so I decided to finally change it, and it keeps me far from the laptop, which is good for the eyes too and I don't stress with the hit coming to my right hand. I did visit some intersting places as to know: an arqueological museum near Lisbon that has some Roman and visigothic remains and I visited a very well known convent/castle in Tomar that takes 2 hours of train to get there.

I'm struggling if I will go to Fatima ( holy shrine) tomorrow or not...due to the bad weather that threats to come...I see lots of clouds, dark ones coming...and I'm like to not go instead of going. We'll see.

I'm still waiting for the class acting schedule...I will wait until Monday, if they don't call me until Monday, I'll go there to see what's going on :(

Well...that's all by now.

See ya

Mamma Mia!

oh wonderful movie!!! So much talent in this movie, lots of singing, seing them jumping and laughing as teenagers, the chemistry of Streep with Brosnan, Colin he could have sang more...that is a pitty, but overall the movie is one of the best I've ever seen! I left the cinema room with a big smile on my face, I thank you everyone who could turn this movie possible, honestly!

As I get out of the room I bought the sound track cd and I have listening to it during all day... ;)

My advice is GO, please take yourselves to watch the movie and you won't regret, is good for the eyes, is great for the mind.

See ya!

Ohhh I LOVE it

I'm gonna tell you, I'm in the love moods, and don't even know exactly WHY, since summer is ending... but it's a good sign, I think.
I love the good friends I have that make me so happy, like today Marta who spent the afternoon with me, I love thinking that I'm about to watch Mamma Mia, but I hate to think that I won't be able to meet Nessinha, I'm sorry for that, don't get mad at me please, I love knowing that today was the day I signed for an acting course, but I'm still waiting for schedule resolution answer by the side of the teacher, hoping she can manage classes for 7 p.m and not for 6 p.m!
I love watching Harrison Ford youtube videos, mostly the ones with scenes in movement of his movies, that man is a pleasure to watch his talents and manners, he has presence, I love the talent of Lena Olin too, she is very special lady, I love thinking about the places to go in my vacations, like going to Tomar and Santarem, I love thinking about the new car coming for next Friday, I love to have excelent grades at my educative service in the castle, and I love many other things, which I won't tell...

See ya,

Today

I spent a whole day without doing much but talking, the day was cloudy and the image to be seen on the dark chamber was too blury for working properly, means no guided visits about the panoramic view of the city, it is a dark chamber composed by a periscope that capts the view of Lisbon in 360º.

More than that... cannot wait to watch Mamma Mia! after Indy 4, this has to be my most wanted movie to watch this year!!! Beyond the obvious facts that bring all of the people to watch it e.g, ABBA fans, Meryl Sreep singing and brilliant perfomance, and hunk Pierce as the main role, BUT I sure have something more to add: Colin Firth yes, this charming, talented British actor who is seen in the corner of the movie poster, but to me he has the niciest pose of the poster!

I took a pic of me 'holding' his hand from the poster's movie...I will post it as soon as I get to watch the movie, which will hopefully be for next week!

See ya

31

Yesterday it was my bday, 31 years old. This pic was taken at the place I work, in St Jorge Castle. My bday was very nice, with friends at work that did a surprise to me with a bday cake. I told them, that I was not going to party for obvious reasons ( read 'Year's Summary' ) but I did accept the cake it was the least I could do.

Ugly Betty this is one of the most favorite tv shows I watch! There is this character named Amanda who plays the receptionist and has been bitchy with Betty ever since, she has changed her attitude towards her and in a sudden Amanda asks how Betty can handle the fact about her mother's death that was 6 years ago, Betty said, that she can't handle with that, doesn't matter how much is the time we lost a parent, and in that exact moment those two start to rely on each other. What I mean is, when we lost someone so important in our lives, like a parent, and when we happen to talk about it to someone else that is one of the most rare moments when we feel sympathy, confort words and love from those who hear us speak about the loss, it's something I saw in that show that I did feel this year too, a person can be bitchy but when we talk about a loss, that person turns the best out of herself, like a grace.

See ya!

My songs

I'm copy pasting some of the songs that mean something important to me from my portuguese blog, so everyone can know me a little better.

Anastacia - Heavy in My Heart -

I've had my share of pleasure and I've tasted pain I never thought that I would touch an angel's wing There's a journey in my eyes It's getting hard for to hide Like the ocean at the sunrise... I've had the heart broken too many times, and each time I listen to it, it conforts me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZWiXmWd4ak

Christina Aguillera - Hurt-

Some days I feel broke inside But I won't admit Sometimes I just wanna hide'Cause it's you I miss And it's so hard to say goodbye When it comes to this, ooh ... When I remember my dad, mostly when I was a kid.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lbcltLf2VHo

Robbie Williams - She's the One-
When you get to where you wanna go And you know the things you wanna know You're smiling When you said what you wanna say And you know the way you wanna play You'll be so high you'll be flying ...
That's the way I feel when I love someone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7mZ5Y6OuH0

Oasis- Don't Look Back in Anger-
Slip inside the eye of your mind Don't you know you might find A better place to play You said that you'd never been But all the things that you've seen Will slowly fade away ... I was 20 years old, when I listened to this song for the first time, and it helps to calm down when I'm mad.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-ysg62GmFo&feature=related

Anne Lenox - Why -

How many times do I have to try to tell you That I'm sorry for the things I've done But when I start to try to tell you That's when you have to tell me Hey, this kind of trouble's only just begun I tell myself too many times Why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut That's why it hurts so bad to hear the words That keep on falling from your mouth Falling from your mouth Falling from your mouth Tell me... Why Why ... Perfect to listen to when I'm determed to do something, and then I get disapointed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wk4lCXt7JKo

See ya!

A year's summary

August past year my dad had a stroke, since then life has changed like never thought it would be.
There were the most painful 8 months ever since I was born, in March God hold my father's hand and took him to heaven. Back to those months, it was like a roler coaster living, calling urgency like 10 times or more while he was at home, the policy of this health systhem that doesn't work well, we have to keep a patient at home even without conditions cause the centres are full and we have to wait months for a free place...and when he finnally got a free place to go, he had to get back to the hospital with a pneumonia, in January. To listen him calling me at night, to see the ladies coming for his personal hygene, the complains he had, memories that I will never forget but they are vanishing as time goes by, and I occupy my mind remembering about the wonderful moments I spent with him, my dear daddy, as I used to call him, and still do when I think of him. Meanwhile I've been open to find love, so I know it depends on me to be charming, loving and intersting to be with, and there is this guy...my work colleague whom I get soooo actracted with, but he has been a wasting of my time in the matter of expecting him to love me, but I've learned to apreciate the times we spend together and those are precious, and if I stay with him with friendship for life, well then I'm a lucky girl...

See ya!

Introduction

Hello everyone, dear friends and people who don't know me at all. I have a Portuguese blog, my friends who know that, and who speak English asked me to have one in English, so they were intersted in reading matters about me, I was relutant in creating one, so English is not my native language and I must be careful to not leave grammar mistakes and such at my entries, but since I take time to agree but I never say no to a challange ( unless the challange is to jump and dive by head at the top plataform of a swimming pool,no I wouldn't do that, no matter what!) sooo here am I, happy with this first entry to see what it comes, and the feedback I can get from here.

So, I'm 30 years old, working with tourism, guide at a monument in Lisbon, single, struggling with love, as you will be able to know it better as I start to warm this blog up with my entries, Harrison Ford fan for life and much more, yes MUCH more, but those are one of my dearest things in life apart of the obvious, like love my family and friends, blabla but no spoony talk about it for now... ;-)