After 3 years of meeting him, we cannot be closer friends than we are now...can I say finally? well it depends, despite of all of the sorrow he still has brought to me...the damn feeling I've got each time my eyes stare at his gorgeous face and body...gowsh....not good to take it to mind as I used to do, cause, ( and I should repeat and let it clear at once) - he doesn't love me. And suffering as I was, like to be part of being alive, cannot be present in the future.
I've got plans to follow, a life that has to change its circle, I've got to expand my world...but yet, I know I cannot go forward without him but as my dearest friend who I treasure in my heart, and not as the lover image my head insists to keep...the love will be within me, I know, but it must be hidden, so it won't scare him away from me...
Until then, I'm living without forcing anything from him, any sign of care, of love...let just life take the flow it should...for both of us.
I've got plans to follow, a life that has to change its circle, I've got to expand my world...but yet, I know I cannot go forward without him but as my dearest friend who I treasure in my heart, and not as the lover image my head insists to keep...the love will be within me, I know, but it must be hidden, so it won't scare him away from me...
Until then, I'm living without forcing anything from him, any sign of care, of love...let just life take the flow it should...for both of us.
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