31

Yesterday it was my bday, 31 years old. This pic was taken at the place I work, in St Jorge Castle. My bday was very nice, with friends at work that did a surprise to me with a bday cake. I told them, that I was not going to party for obvious reasons ( read 'Year's Summary' ) but I did accept the cake it was the least I could do.

Ugly Betty this is one of the most favorite tv shows I watch! There is this character named Amanda who plays the receptionist and has been bitchy with Betty ever since, she has changed her attitude towards her and in a sudden Amanda asks how Betty can handle the fact about her mother's death that was 6 years ago, Betty said, that she can't handle with that, doesn't matter how much is the time we lost a parent, and in that exact moment those two start to rely on each other. What I mean is, when we lost someone so important in our lives, like a parent, and when we happen to talk about it to someone else that is one of the most rare moments when we feel sympathy, confort words and love from those who hear us speak about the loss, it's something I saw in that show that I did feel this year too, a person can be bitchy but when we talk about a loss, that person turns the best out of herself, like a grace.

See ya!

My songs

I'm copy pasting some of the songs that mean something important to me from my portuguese blog, so everyone can know me a little better.

Anastacia - Heavy in My Heart -

I've had my share of pleasure and I've tasted pain I never thought that I would touch an angel's wing There's a journey in my eyes It's getting hard for to hide Like the ocean at the sunrise... I've had the heart broken too many times, and each time I listen to it, it conforts me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZWiXmWd4ak

Christina Aguillera - Hurt-

Some days I feel broke inside But I won't admit Sometimes I just wanna hide'Cause it's you I miss And it's so hard to say goodbye When it comes to this, ooh ... When I remember my dad, mostly when I was a kid.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lbcltLf2VHo

Robbie Williams - She's the One-
When you get to where you wanna go And you know the things you wanna know You're smiling When you said what you wanna say And you know the way you wanna play You'll be so high you'll be flying ...
That's the way I feel when I love someone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7mZ5Y6OuH0

Oasis- Don't Look Back in Anger-
Slip inside the eye of your mind Don't you know you might find A better place to play You said that you'd never been But all the things that you've seen Will slowly fade away ... I was 20 years old, when I listened to this song for the first time, and it helps to calm down when I'm mad.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-ysg62GmFo&feature=related

Anne Lenox - Why -

How many times do I have to try to tell you That I'm sorry for the things I've done But when I start to try to tell you That's when you have to tell me Hey, this kind of trouble's only just begun I tell myself too many times Why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut That's why it hurts so bad to hear the words That keep on falling from your mouth Falling from your mouth Falling from your mouth Tell me... Why Why ... Perfect to listen to when I'm determed to do something, and then I get disapointed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wk4lCXt7JKo

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A year's summary

August past year my dad had a stroke, since then life has changed like never thought it would be.
There were the most painful 8 months ever since I was born, in March God hold my father's hand and took him to heaven. Back to those months, it was like a roler coaster living, calling urgency like 10 times or more while he was at home, the policy of this health systhem that doesn't work well, we have to keep a patient at home even without conditions cause the centres are full and we have to wait months for a free place...and when he finnally got a free place to go, he had to get back to the hospital with a pneumonia, in January. To listen him calling me at night, to see the ladies coming for his personal hygene, the complains he had, memories that I will never forget but they are vanishing as time goes by, and I occupy my mind remembering about the wonderful moments I spent with him, my dear daddy, as I used to call him, and still do when I think of him. Meanwhile I've been open to find love, so I know it depends on me to be charming, loving and intersting to be with, and there is this guy...my work colleague whom I get soooo actracted with, but he has been a wasting of my time in the matter of expecting him to love me, but I've learned to apreciate the times we spend together and those are precious, and if I stay with him with friendship for life, well then I'm a lucky girl...

See ya!

Introduction

Hello everyone, dear friends and people who don't know me at all. I have a Portuguese blog, my friends who know that, and who speak English asked me to have one in English, so they were intersted in reading matters about me, I was relutant in creating one, so English is not my native language and I must be careful to not leave grammar mistakes and such at my entries, but since I take time to agree but I never say no to a challange ( unless the challange is to jump and dive by head at the top plataform of a swimming pool,no I wouldn't do that, no matter what!) sooo here am I, happy with this first entry to see what it comes, and the feedback I can get from here.

So, I'm 30 years old, working with tourism, guide at a monument in Lisbon, single, struggling with love, as you will be able to know it better as I start to warm this blog up with my entries, Harrison Ford fan for life and much more, yes MUCH more, but those are one of my dearest things in life apart of the obvious, like love my family and friends, blabla but no spoony talk about it for now... ;-)